on the 6th of november, 2012.

He takes Ohio. My heart is racing and I am on my knees, face down on the floor. “Jesus,” I say. “Please help us!”

Only minutes later, Obama's name flashes across the screen as he takes another term as President of the United States.

My heart stops. And it sinks. Down, down, down... and it just keeps dropping.

The hope is gone now. And my eyes get blurry and time is standing still.

I sit there, alone in a room, watching the TV as democrats cheer for the re-election of Barack Obama. I start shaking, and then the tears come up and out. I sit there, alone, sobbing. No hope for my country is left anymore. I am done. All the motivation to save it is gone.

Everyone is upstairs, getting ready for bed. I can hardly stand on my own two legs. But I’ve gotta tell them. Mascara running down my cheeks, I tell my mom, “He won. He won Ohio and then he won the election.” She hugs me and holds me tightly, and says it's not worth my tears. Together, we go back downstairs and sees his name plastered everywhere across the screen.

Fear begins to creep in. I tell myself that this is the world that I will have to raise my children in. This is the world that my children will have to face on their own someday. I'm angry at the people who chose this kind of life. I'm angry at the people who didn't do anything at all to try and stop it. Instead of voting, they just waited around to see what would happen because they didn't “have an opinion”.

I stay up till one o'clock in the morning. When I finally go to bed, I can't fall asleep. I am so scared for what the next four years will bring. My face is burning and my eyes are swollen. Truth is, this election, it is worth my tears. I have been holding on to the last shred of hope, which I believe was Mitt Romney. I knew that if he were to win the presidency, things would begin to change for the better. But once he lost, I felt like I had lost, too.

He would have made a great leader, I know.

These days afterwards, I am trying to give myself some hope again. I am trying to trust Obama with my country. I am trying to tell myself that Jesus is King, above all else, and above all men. And ultimately, He can do whatever He wants with America. I am trying to forgive the people who make all these wrong choices. I am learning to pray more for my nation.

And maybe that’s the reason why Jesus has got Obama where he is today. Maybe He wants us, as a nation, to start praying again. Because truth is, things are going to get worse. I know that. It is just going to happen. But I know that if I hold His hand through whatever happens here in America, I will be okay. And so will you.

and You will always reign.

choosing joy ( no matter what the circumstances ),
hannah

the next four years.

truth is, my generation is going to be the one taking care of all of our nation's problems after all of you people who are voting these days are gone.

truth is, i don't want to be doing that.

truth is, i want my nation restored back to it's former glory.

and truth is, that can't happen if we have Obama in for another four years.

so truth is, if i could vote, i would vote for Mitt Romney.

and though people may think that i get my opinions from my parents, i would still vote for him.

because like him, i believe that is a baby you are killing when you perform and abortion. because like him, i see how deeply in debt our nation is. like him, i see how we need a leader who will stay true to his word.

so i've been praying. and i will be completely honest.
i've never prayed for our nation before.

until now.

now i see how deep we are in the muck that Obama has gotten us into. frankly, what our last couple of presidents have gotten us into. but it's not just them. it's the people. we are a sickeningly lazy nation. we are a bunch of people who sit around on their butts all day. who don't work. who live off of the government. that alone is a sign of the muck we are into. and we are chin deep in it.

over the last couple of weeks i have been watching the debates and it scares me. it scares me to imagine what our country will look like if Obama were to get re-elected.

he lies. and he cheats. and he keeps secrets from his people.

and i don't want a president that does that.

i believe that things will only begin to change for the better if Romney gets in.

i'm on my knees this time around.

the things i see today on the tv screen. well, they terrify me sometimes. and i want these times to end. i want to be rid of them. i want to see a group of people who work harder. i want to see a man in power who is really going to begin to fix all of our problems.

* * * * * * *

chances are, i may get some hate over this. but this is where i stand. and i don't see anything wrong with wanting a stronger, more secure America. i don't mean to offend anybody who reads this. but it's about freedom of speech. and i would rather keep that freedom. i want to protect all of my freedom. i want to keep my weapons and my religion and right to homeschool.

that won't stay if we have Barack Obama as our nation's leader for another four years.

so if i could vote, i would vote American.

hannah.

6.

this song on repeat for me right now // beirocks. basically just German hot pockets :) // 

watching the 2nd presidential debate // Christmas shopping

 // leaves beginning to cover up the ground // anthropology.

joy.

hannah