all week. it's been hectic. all week. it's been crazy-chaotic. nothing but stress and waking up every morning with a list of things i still have to do before performance week ( which is just next week! ). i've been extremely exhausted both mentally and physically. and i don't handle stress very well. juggling summer school and performing in a ballet is a lot to deal with.
i woke up this morning to this long list of to dos:
- get stain out of dress
- redo yesterday's math lesson and do today's
- practice forward rolls A LOT before rehearsal tomorrow
- read from mocking jay
- do german lesson
- buy a hair piece at walgreens
- change the straps on black ballet shoes
- get bag ready for rehearsal tomorrow
- put costumes together and in order
- text tess about schedule tomorrow
- wash black leotard, tan leotard and pink tights
yeah, yeah you see what i mean. all day, everyday. and that is just what needs to be done before tomorrow is over. then tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and every day next week brings on a new list of to dos that need to be marked off as done.
so obviously, the last thing on my mind was taking the time to sit down and write a post. but here i am, with a cup of cool aid in hand and my laptop in front of me, writing a post. i thought doing it would clear my mind. because yes, yes i know i need to take a chill pill and put down in words all the junk that's bugging me and causing me to break out in hives these days. yeah, yeah i've been that stressed. and i don't want to flip out because these performances are always such beautiful, amazing experiences that i could never forget or want to miss a minute of so... you get my point. no more fumbling around trying to do things myself when i could just stop, take a deep breath, and pray.
ahhh. i'm feeling much, much better now. getting all my junk out in words. out of my head, which is too full right now. yes, this has been good. woosh goes the stress! :)
p.s. thanks, lovlies, for listening to all my problems. i'm awfully sure that's really not what you come here every day to read about, so i apologize for that. but i'd really appreciate prayers through this next week. please pray that Jesus will give me and all my fellow performers the strength to do our very best in this production of The Velveteen Rabbit. and especially for a bestie of mine, who stars as the Rabbit, herself. she could use every bit of Jesus power! pray that everything will run smoothly and without any major complications, because there are always some. at one point or another, there always is. but mainly just that He will be under and over everything and will be a part of it and bless it. we want to make this all about HIM. thank you, thank you, THANK YOU DARLINGS!!! <3